i really cannot sleep.

Oh, gosh. This week has been terribly long, and i am glad to have it over with. 

Between really obnoxious history projects, and fencing, and going to the gym until i literally couldn't move any more, i am just run down, tired, and overall not very [here is a certain je ne sais pas] myself i guess. 

For the first time this week, i forgot my iPod on the bus; in case you didn't know, with out that to get me going in the morning, I am pretty much not in a school mind set. Keep telling myself three years until i can opt out of this boring suburbia normalcy. I skipped out [well it wasn't my fault] of fencing practice three times, and got yelled at for wanting to try to be in the spring musical. Needless to say, couldn't try out for the musical. Just can't put it without saying that i was kind of upset. Dance didn't seem to hold my attention this week either. It didn't have it's usual calling of freedom. Instead, i went to the gym four times these days, and worked like a crazy person, by myself. Running, elipticals, crunches, and weights. i can barely feel my arms anymore. And today, when i was actually present for fencing with the girls, we fenced for varsity positions only to discover that this won't actually turn into anything permanent. Besides just killing my arms a little more, it was a complete failure, and waste of time; Most of this week has been. 

Besides all of this, i am happy for a small relief in the schedule; a miniscule glimmer of peace. Tomorrow is Saturday. Saturday is the day for Regional Choir auditions. As i have been practicing this piece like it would eventually save my life,I am hoping for the best. 

After a ruined day in school, and a crushed morale, i did take comfort to the fact that i would be able [no matter how short the time] to see a few friends. Upon my arrival, i did see someone that i did not expect to see. Him being there made everything worthwhile. We chatted, and played guitar. This is something that I did not even touch during the week. Somehow made everything thread together, forming such an end. 

I sit at my desk, stairing at this screen at 12:41 on a friday night, rememeber me, as i look forward to ending it here.