UGH.

I have most definitely not been in the best of moods for a while now. I am not normally the jealous type, honestly. But lately I have kind of been noticing it in myself. This annoys me. Those little things that are nothing to be jealous about have had me feeling super left out. Kind of like the musketeer that didn't make the cut. 

The whole musketeer thing is that there only feels like there is room for three. Then i feel suffocated and have to leave. I hate having to sit and be anti-social because of something this dumb, but i just don't mesh into certain groups of people. Not that they are bad people, but when three of the same people get together, I have no idea what to say or even what they are talking about. Having these awkward moments just makes me want to leave giving off that anti-social vibe. This is definitely not how i want to be portrayed, but in the process, I feel like a convenience, or last resort.

"Sorry nothing better was available?"

So right about now, I am thinking that maybe I am making this into a bigger deal than it actually is, but I'm pretty sure that nobody wants to be last amenity for anyone. 

Talk it out? probably. Living in a hole isn't fun, and this isn't how i want any friend of mine to perceive the situation. 

Capisci?